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Guess what time it is?  That's right, 4-ish am.  Guess who's not sleeping?  That's right, me.  Guess what I'm doing?  That's right homework that was due a week ago.  Guess why?  That's right, cuz I'm pathetic.
This is my fifth semester in a row.  I even took a class over the Christmas holiday.  The plan--take 14 credits this term and do my externship in the spring.  First day of school, I was only registered for 9 credits.  Now, I only have 6.  It's really dumb.  I'm taking microbiology (class and lab), and health promotion methods.  3 classes should be easy breezy.  Guess what?  It's not.  I haven't been motivated or focused consistently at all--my heart is not in studying.  Midterms are this week.  Have I studied?  Nope.  I think I'm failing the health class...
I do not want to care about school.  I need to...but I am ready to throw in the towel and call it quits.  
No incentives I can think of are working...not a new phone, not gifts, not being halfway done, not getting a good grade out of it, nothing makes me want to care.  I need a supercharged genius clone or robot of myself to do my homework for me...simply put, the only reasons I care right now and don't drop out are that I'd have to return my grant money, I've been in school forever already so I should finish and get it over with sooner than later, I can't afford to fail another semester, and I don't have a fabulous fun job to go enjoy instead.


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